Well when it comes to family, marriage, a home and years it’s just not easy to walk away from it. I inherently believe that certain things are meant to be and sometimes they just don’t workout. For what ever reason they just don’t always finish the way they should. I was reading a good novel (Dear John) the other day and at first I was truly disappointed with the ending because it didn’t work out. It did work out I hope for the one fellow but not the main characters or maybe it did. John learned to love, a woman, his dad and maybe forgive his mother in some strange way but the moral of the story was lost to me at first and that is letting go… It’s hard to let go if you don’t think you’ve done everything you could. Did I really do everything I could to save my family, my marriage, my home? Am I really giving happiness a chance if I’m still consumed with these thoughts. I stood at church the other day for some baptisms and I’m not often seen there (at church). But it was touching and forces one to evaluate family. It isn’t an easy thing to let go of. I just let go of something pretty wonderful but did I really ever give it a chance? It could have been great I’m sure as there were far to many signs of it’s greatness but I infact had not “let go” of what I had. For what ever reason when ever I start to feel the slightest semblance of happiness I need to pull back, and I have to ask myself what am I pulling myself back to?
Have I done all I could do in my past relationship? Am I true to myself? Am I true to others? Am I true to my children? I think if I’m not true to myself the others all suffer. Have I let go? I know that my blog is read, I know that I’ve left people hurting in my wake and that was not my intention. My intention was to seek out love and happiness but I think I need to let go first. I’m sorry to those I’ve hurt in trying to find my path! I wish I would have stuck with my instincts to have waited… I did manage to let go for a moment and for that, Thank you! Anyhow a great quote…

In life, there’s many things that we have to learn to let go. We have to let go of situations, things, memories, people and even ourselves.

One might ask why I write these, why do I put myself out there? These are my breadcrumbs and if I get lost I can read through them and maybe I’ll find my way back!

Someone shared this with me yesterday evening as we were discussing how people judge and pass judgment with regards to choices we might make. How either based on appearances or circumstances and innuendo they are mere gossip mongers hearing an account, twisting it and lobbing knives. Anyhow this passage seemed very fitting.

NAILS IN THE FENCE

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him
a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must
hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had
driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned
to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually
dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to
drive those nails into the fence.
Finally the day came when the boy didn’t lose his temper at all. He
told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out
one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father
that all the nails were gone. The father took his son by the hand and led
him to the fence. He said, “You have done well, my son, but look at the
holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say
things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one. You can put
a knife in a man and draw it out. It won’t matter how many times you
say I’m sorry, the wound is still there.”

If we are all alone, then we are all together in that to!

Democracy’s still the worst form of government there is, except for all the rest.  Fred Thompson  (playing Arthur Branch)

Law and Order episode Kingmaker Episode Number: 369 Season Num: 16

Well the site wasn’t originally conceived to be used for quotations but tonight I heard one I absolutely loved so well here is my first blog QUOTE “Even a broken clock gets to be right twice a day” Anthony Hopkins :: Fracture